Player!

So many feelings bottled up inside,
The pain and hurt because I have to hide.
I knew better, right from the start,
That in the end you'd only break my heart.
You seemed different so I let you in,
I thought it was, your heart I could win.
Now I cry from a sin all my own,
Once again, I am all alone.
Friends tried to warn me, he's playing with you,
I only thought, if they only knew.
The way you make my heart pound and flutter,
For me I thought, there could be no other.
In your arms it all felt so right,
Your harmless arms held me so tight.
Now I know it was all a lie, And over and over I ask myself why.
Why does it hurt to just think of your touch, It's been only a day and I miss you so much.
Why are you constantly on my mind,
A way to erase this I wish I could find.
Just please don't break my heart so slow,
Keep on walking while I cry as you go.

Who I am

I am without speech, for my words are offensive.
I am without sight, for it is clouded.
I am without heart, for it has hardened.
I am without sound, for it has muffled.
I am without soul, for it has drowned.

Hurt and Alone

Such a naive little girl
All alone in the world
On the inside she cries
On the outside she smiles
Never does anything wrong
he's been good all along
She does everything
No buts, just okays
She can't sleep at night
'Cause of all the pain that she hides
Her body's black and blue
And the pain is so true
No one offers a hand
Or gives her a chance
She just takes all the blame
But her soul's filled with shame

Snif!

Anger
Pain
Hatred
I can't take the feeling any more.
Please, make me numb,
I'm going crazy.
I sit in bed late at night thinking about everything and nothing.
Tears Screams Cry - into the darkness.
No one hears me,and if they do they don't care.

Can you?

Can you hide your sorrow and bury it deep inside?
Can you throw up that synthetic smile and keep it oh so wide?
Can you stand there bold, holding yourself tall?
Can you keep your strength when all you want to do is fall?
Can you force yourself thru each miserable painful day?
Can you control yourself to not think in such a selfish way?
Can you take what matters most and fight to keep it whole?
Can you do it day by day and stand by it as your role?
Can you never let that voice convince you that you're wrong?
Can you be there when you're needed and help them to be strong?
Can you push them towards their goals, the things that bring them bliss?
Can you do it even if its against YOUR wish?
Can you truly fight the demons that clutch onto your soul?
Can you be the one to pay such horrid toll?
Can you?